Cry

Today I cried, I tried to cleanse my soul of the emotions that I had hidden away. I let my tears flow like the biggest waterfall trying to escape the pain that I have because I can't be with you. I haven't cried in a long time just because I know that crying is nothing more than a temporary band aid of the feelings that I harbor for you. However, today I cried couldn't hold it - I had to - I had to cry to let the world around me know that I am at this moment in pain. My feelings for you is the foundation of my discomfort. I hurt inside - knowing that we are still not where we need to be. There is a continued emptiness inside me that only you seen to fill. Again my soul, my self and inner being are constantly at war because my heart belongs to you, but I am not there with it. My body, mind, and heart are scattered and this hurts, so today I cried.